Hannah Mayer | Gallery: Healing | Healing HeARTS | Art on Campus | UC Davis Health

This piece explores the delicate process of healing after profound loss and tragedy, specifically in the wake of a mass shooting. It is a self-portrait capturing a pivotal moment when I stepped out of the shower, grappling with the memories of the previous night's horrors. As I turned on the news and learned that the death toll had reached 58, this moment marked the beginning of my struggle with post-traumatic stress disorder, dissociation, and survivor's guilt. At the same time, it was the start of a journey toward resilience, gratitude, and hope.

The painting employs surreal imagery to mirror the disorienting aftermath of trauma, where life seems to stand still, yet time relentlessly continues. The landscape depicted evokes a sense of quiet isolation, reflecting the emotional terrain that survivors often face. The muted colors and soft, dreamlike quality of the imagery represent the haze of grief. The flashbacks and echoes of the past, and the disconnection from oneself.

The antique signs within the piece serve as reminders of the persistent presence of the past while also pointing toward a glimmer of hope. Like a flickering neon light. Ultimately, the painting stands as a tribute to those who have endured unimaginable violence. Emphasizing that although the path to healing is not linear, it is possible. Personally, it serves as a reminder of the strength I have found. A second chance at life, and the inspiration for a career that allows me to help others heal.”—Hannah Mayer